I HOPE YOU DIE OF CANCER!!!!

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 01:45:05 GMT

im finally off my grounding, but what do ya know ive got strep throat. so im gonna be sick for the next few weeks, o ya if anyone knows how to make there journal friends only could you please tell me. thats it. i would say something cool, or funny but jacobs, mr. herff, and the FBI is watching what im writing right now, soo o well.

things keep getting worse

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 18:08:53 GMT

so i came home yesterday, and i thought things wouldnt be that bad. but they are. my parents took all of my "punk" clothes and the other clothes that they dont like and sent it too good will. they took away my CD player and MP3 player that i just bought. and basicy i cant do anything i cant watch TV listen to music, play guitar, go online, talk on the phone. the only thing i can do is read. i did my homework and than went to bed at 6, i slept for 12 hours last night. i woke up this morning, who would think that i would actually be happy to go to school. well my parents are doing this to "make me a better person" and to make me stop doing drugs. the funny thing is is that i was gonna stop in the first place when they caught me, but now that they've taken everything from me i just dont know anymore. my life totally fucking sucks now, they arent giving me a date of when i will be off my grounding just "when start acting better" so basicly when i become a little conformist robot that obeys there every command. this sucks alot luckily ive been able to update this from school, and have a little contact with ashley. i miss her the most, i cant even call her up and talk to her. ahhhh!!!!! god i cant wait until this is over

o ya so yesterday some fucking faggot pushed nathan over for no reason, so i bitched him out and told him i was gonna kick his ass if he touched nathan again. than today he comes up with 5 other guys because hes a fucking woman who wont fight for himself. this fuckin retard tells me "he can push who ever he wants, i can push you, i can push your whole family" which is probably the most retarted thing ive ever heard. o well ill problly wind up going crazy and fucking shooting up the school and all the faggot hard asses.

thats about it buh bye.

i love you ashley. i miss you sooooooooo much.

ya i got caught

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 18:32:51 GMT

well i got in trouble for doing robotusin, which i regret. i cant hang out with my friends for the next month, and i can never hangout with joe again. this sucks, my parents said that they may send meto military school, we may move to barrington, and i may go to rehab. i hope that none of these things will happen, and i doubt that they will. well seeing as how i cant use the computer at home for a month ill say here at school that i miss a few people that i usualy talk online too. just 28 more days though. oh and ashley im sorry you had to be there for that, i dont think my parents are holding any grudges against you.... luckily. well thats about it. ill see you all out in the internet world in a month. o ya and ashley i love you and ill miss you like hell.

P.S. ill comment on all of them when i get allowed back on the computer.

P.P.S. i got my hair cut, i think im gonna keep it that way idk though

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 22:26:04 GMT

i met sam today. that was amazing. like even more amazing than ever thought possible.

joes over, and he sucks at the guitar. ha ha

thing i stole from asley. because im a giant poser

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 04:21:17 GMT

ya todays the last day of break, and im very disapointed because i had an awesome time for the past 2 weeks, o well. shit happens and heres a quiz that no one will read.....

Basics
Name:: steven joseph welsch
Age:: Fifteen
Height:: 6' 0''
Hair Color:: brown
Eye Color:: blue, green. it changes

School Life
What's your school's mascot?: idk, probably something gay
School color(s)?: i dont fucking know probably brown. or something else
G.P.A.?: what the fuck is a GPA
Who is your favorite teacher?: mr springborn was cool. and coach D is a cool history teacher.
What do they teach?: mr springborn taught math and science, and coach D teaches history
Is this your favorite class?: better than the other gay classes i have

Internet
Do you use any instant messengers?: Yes
If so, which ones?: AIM
About how many hours a day do you spend online?: way too much. im a loser and live by no one
Do you have a digital camera?: no, my family is gay
If so, do you post pictures of yourself online?: i only have 2 picture of myself. and one of them is my ID

Music
Do you play any instruments?: yes
If so, what one(s)?: my jackson DXMG guitar is my baby. but i can play bass pretty well too
3 Favorite Genres Of Music:: i dont label music
3 Favorite Bands:: this is hard but cannibal corpse, dead kennedys, and the velvet underground
Do you go to concerts and/or shows?: as often as i can
What is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show?: i dont pay for it, or its free
What is the least you've ever spent?: no money at all
Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny?: they can do whatever the hell they want
Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to?: people call me gay because i like limp bizkits music (not there shitty lyrics, the guitar, bass, and drums)
Did you notice the grammatical error in question 29?: No. and i dont know which one is number 29

Word Association
Blue:: sky
Camera:: pictures?
girl: fucking
Pretty:: ugly
Pants:: carthartt
Music:: my life
God:: is over rated, and designed by man
Sweater:: black and white
Live Journal:: kinda gay
MTV:: the worst thing to happen to music.

Labels:
Do you think labels are dumb?: yes, there fucking stupid
Why or why not?: because it puts people in social classes which leads to drama, and drama is for faggots.
What do people label you as?: probably metal, punk, or hippy. so overall burnout
How/Why did you get this label?: because people think there cool by fitting me into one class that i cant get out of

Which Is Worse?
Physical Pain/Emotional Pain?: physical, being impaled through the leg would hurt a hell of alot more than "oh my girlfriend broke up with me, bitch bitch blah blah blah"
Blink-182/Good Charlotte?: Good Charlotte
Being Deaf/Being Blind?: being deaf, bc than i couldnt listen to music, and than i would go on a murderous rampage.
Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do?: rushing around
Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm?: i dont know, its equal, because either way i would lose snowboarding, or guitar

Love
Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"?: idk, never loved someone
Is it better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all?: probably
Are you romantic?: If i want to be
Are you in a relationship now?: nope
If so, for how long?:
If not, how long have you been single?:too long, probably 7 or 8 months
What song describes your love life right now?: kill your mother and rape your dog, by dying fetus

Ranomosity
War: Good or Bad?: good, because im misanthropic
What do you think of designer labels?: there retarted and i hope the owners die of an aneurysm
Who's skankier: Britney Spears or Paris Hilton?: idk, i would fuck both of em.
What is it with guys and cars?: cars are cool as shit
Do you sing?: i can yell
If so, what part (Soprano 1,Alto 2, et cetera)?: I don't know any of that bullshit
Kiss or hug?: kiss
What color is your room?: white with posters
How old is your mom?: like 41 or 42
Black and white or color photos?: Black and white.
Who cuts your hair?: no one anymore
What color is your toothbrush?: idk, white i think
What color is your hair brush?: i dont have one
What kind of hair products do you use?: got 2 B. its reallly strong gel, and its cheap
Is K-Mart just the poor man's Wal-Mart?: no. k mart and wal mart are both cool
Are you sexy?: HA no

What color to people tells you looks nice on you?: none, my friends arent gay
What color do you think looks nice on you?: i dont pay attention to it
Clothes shopping or grocery shopping?: grocery shopping bc im fat.
Who do you sit with at lunch?: matt, max, and the other crackheads and hippies
Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?: no, i sound gay
Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?: idk. ed the announcer?
What is the website for one of your favorite bands?: they dont have a web site for the velvet underground :(
Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?: i dont really care, as long as there cool. but idk no more than a year younger
Do you listen to songs on repeat often?: it depends on the song
Who was the last person you hung out with?: matt and max
What did you and that person do?: nothing, were boring
Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. "lol", "brb", "jk", et cetera)?: yes, its a habbit
Are you a people-pleaser?: idk, people dont like me
Do you dye your hair regularly?: no, ive never dyed it in my life
What about your eyebrows?: obviously not
Do you wear makeup?: i think this quiz was meant for a girl.......
If you answered "yes", to #96, are you female?: nope
Do you buy CDs edited or unedited?: un edited, i dont believe in censorship
an you beatbox?: no only niggers and fags beatbox
Does your mom like the song "Hey Ya" by OutKast?: yes. its embarassing. and BOB is a much better song by them

umm ya i think this was meant for a girl, or made b a girl. o well i was bored

break of winter?

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 23:19:08 GMT

i saw ashley today. that made my whole year good.

im gonna go snowboarding now

AUF WIEDERSEHEN

the internet is getting reallllllllly gay

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 07:13:20 GMT

ive been thinking lately that the internet takes up alot of my time, and i could be doing alot more productive things like reading a good book or playing guitar or having fun with friends. ill probably be using it less,maybe just stop going on the computer forever. idk

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 05:04:47 GMT

buffalo finally opened today!!!!!!!!!! o man it was soooo awesome. they dont have many jumps there yet, but i was hitting the table all day. lol i like overshot it every time by like 5 or 10 feet. but i landed so thats good. hmmmm thats pretty much all that happened today that was exciting. umm me and matt (lombardi) were talking about hockey during lunch and he told me about how the NHL pro shop sold all out of the new tampa bay lightning jerseys. which is fuckin crazy considering there the makers of the jerseys.

well thats about it kiddies. ill leave u with some lyrcs

THE PIXIES- WHERE IS MY MIND

Ooooooh - stop

With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
But there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself

Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Where is my mind

Way out in the water
See it swimmin'

I was swimmin' in the Carribean
Animals were hiding behind the rocks
Except the little fish
But they told me, he swears
Tryin' to talk to me to me to me

Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Where is my mind

Way out in the water
See it swimmin' ?

With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
If there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself

Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Where is my mind

Ooooh
With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Ooooh
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Ooooh
Ooooh

ya that songs amazing, its the song they play at the end of fight club. the part when all of the buildings are falling down

im bored

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 05:56:07 GMT

what should me jeff and jordan name our band?

im very sad

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 09:02:01 GMT

darrel "dimebag" abbott was one of the greatest guitar players of all time, he was taked from us all too soon. when i had heard that he had died at school i felt as if a part of me had died. dimebag was the reason i started playing metal music. he brought a sence of passion, and originality to his music. lately ive read alot of articles about him and they all have something in common he always wanted people to have a good time and just wanted to make good music. my heart goes out to vinnie paul, and the rest of the pantera family.

Rest In Peace dimebag, you will be truly missed

PANTERA-WALK!

Can’t you see I’m easily bothered by persistence
One step from lashing out at you...
You want in to get under my skin
And call yourself a friend
I’ve got more friends like you
What do I do?

is there no standard anymore?
What it takes, who I am, where I’ve been
Belong
You can’t be something you’re not
Be yourself, by yourself
Stay away from me
A lesson learned in life
Known from the dawn of time

re--spect, walk

Run your mouth when I’m not around
It’s easy to achieve
You cry to weak friends that sympathize
Can you hear the violins playing you song?
Those same friends tell me your every word

is there no standard anymore?
What it takes, who I am, where I’ve been
Belong
You can’t be something you’re not
Be yourself, by yourself
Stay away from me
A lesson learned in life
Known from the dawn of time

re--spect, walk

Are you talking to me?
No way punk

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 23:16:41 GMT

my dads a fucking dick, i hope he dies a slow painful death

i got bored

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 23:38:08 GMT

You are Iggy Pop, and you snap, crackle, and pop
like fireworks. You have boundless energy, and
you're invincible. You should be dead by now,
you know that, right? You survive everything,
and never get fat. You're spastic, and a great
dancer...you probably could be a contortionist
if you wanted to. You love to shock, and rock,
and do so better than anyone else. Sometimes
your irresponsiblity drives your friends nuts,
and your drug habits can be annoying, but you
are an excellent performer nonetheless and
probably like metallic pants. You never sound
insincere.

Which rad old school 70's glam icon are you? (with pics)
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thats pretty cool, iggy pop is tied with lou reed for the coolest mother fucker in the world

You Are Stevo!

Which SLC Punk are you?
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that movie kicks ass, but ive seen it to many times, and ya i guess im steve-o. atleast i answered it honestly an said i was a poser

Renton! *swoons* Your out of the toilet, moving on,
going striaght and choosing life. Go you.

Which Trainspotting charactor are You?
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yes, renton is fuckin awesome! i get to swim in a toilet. lol that movies fuckin awesome too ive watched it like 5 times during this boring weekend

im a free man

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 04:53:17 GMT

i think im finally off my grounding, woo i may update this more often, but who knows

my birthday

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 04:15:26 GMT

today was pretty cool, this morning julie called me to wish me happy birthday and it was like one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me... thanx juke :) then later we went to a funeral it was my moms friends husbands dads funeral, lol. then we went out to eat for my birthday, it was pretty cool, got back and talked to my friends for a little while, thats about it just an average day. o yes and i would like to thank anyone who told me happy birthday it made today a happy one :D hmm lyrics???

DYING FETUS
KILL YOUR MOTHER AND RAPE YOUR DOG

kill your mother and rape your dog!
fuck these corporations and their fucking record stores,
I don't want my fucking paycheck feeding money whores
these bastards flood the market with their fabricated shit,
and laugh as this pathetic fucking music gets them rich...
stay the fuck, right out of my life,
I don't need your, fucking advice,
you don't know what, our shit is all about,
so don't even try to figure it out,
fuck your spice girls and your fucking pearl jam,
its all a bunch a shit, I say, fuck it,
fuck your dave matthews and your fucking rem,
you god damned bitch, fucking clueless

an interesting day

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 18:52:22 GMT

lets see, i havent updated my journal for a while mainly because nothing has really happened thats worth reading. but that streak has ended. yesterday jeff and jordan came over and we had band practice for a while and i was actually kinda suprised how good we sounded. that was really fun then jeff had to leave so we packed up his drums and me and jordan were dropped off by the movies and we met up with julie and brittany. we were walking around and we got something to eat. then we went to chads party and me and jordan were talkin to matt, and he said that hes gonna have a show at his house, and were gonna be one of the bands that has a set. then he said that his bands probably gonna play clearwater and he said because they get to pick what bands get to play with them were definitly gonna be one of them. so this is pretty fuckin cool man. ummm i would say thats about it o ya today is my birthday and julie called me this morning to wish me a happy birthday and it was awesome, it was like the nicest thing anyones ever done for me. well thats it comment so i look cool like a mofo.

deutschland

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 04:12:56 GMT

lets see today was pretty cool. everyone was cool at school, and i had a pretty good time i guess you could say. then i came home and max and his cousin who flew in from germany wanted to come over. so they came over and we took a walk to westfield, but me and max could tell she was bored out of her mind, so we started walking back to the house. on the way me and max figured some vandalism would make her american expierience a bit more fun. so max found a pumpkin and tried smashing it on the street. ha all he did was make a crack in the middle of it. so he went up to it and kicked it really hard, and all he wound up doing was hitting his foot really hard. lol and he fell over because it hurt so much. when we got home we all pretty much caught on that none of us could understand each other. lol so we went to freetranslations.com to try and get something out of her, but it worked "nicht sehr gut" so we just played pool and foosball most of the time. and pretended like we knew what the other person was saying. so that was basicly it for the whole night. it was fun, and it was a cool expierience. well thats about it, i think ill leave you with some lyrics to make this entry somewhat interesting.

MISFITS LYRICS

"Last Caress"

i got something to say i killed your baby today and it doesn't matter much to me as long as it's dead well i got something to say i raped your mother today and it doesn't matter much to me as long as she's spread sweet lovely death i am waiting for your breath come sweet death, one last caress go sweet lovely death i am waiting for your breath come sweet death, one last caress well, i got something to say i killed your baby today and it doesn't matter much to me as long as it's dead sweet lovely death i am waiting for your breath come sweet death one last caress one last caress, sweet death one last caress, sweet death oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 04:32:10 GMT

lets see what happened today. ok matt came over and we hung out, that was fun its cool that were friends again. umm we watched fahrenheit 9/11, his first time, and my like 5th lol. but it was still really cool. so than after that i went online and no one was talking so i just said fuck it and i called ashley like i was supposed to do. that was cool she was watching some movie i think it was called "basketball diary" or something like that i dont quite remember. ummm, so we talked for like 3 hours until my dad kicked me off the phone. so it was a good day. tommary i think i have a guitar lesson, im not sure. well thats it im gonna have a quiz thingy too, hopefully it will work.

my friend ashley

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 08:52:58 GMT

ok, lets see today i went to my birthday party with my relatives, it was pretty cool. hung out with them talked, watched the football game, and watched fahrenheit 9/11. when me and my dad went to go pick up the movie we were talking to the guys at the rental place and we were just talking about how that movie feels very liberating and you feel as if you have the power and say that you are supposed to be given in a democracy. and how the bush administration is trying to crush that feeling by saying that the movie was totaly false and taken out of context or spinned. bottom line, if you havent seen the movie go see it, its amazing, and if your too fuckin cheap to go and rent it than ill burn you a copy thats how confident i am that you will be at the very least moved by this movie.

ok now to the title of this journal i wrote that bc today me and ashley talked for a while and told eachother things we havent told anyone else (and dont plan on telling anyone else so dont fucking ask). so that was good, well i would say that about it. im off to bed kidd's leave a comment or ill be forced to use my bounty hunting liscence and enforce my right to hunt man!! MUWHAHAHAHA!!!!!

P.S. the person who sees the disapointed mood will know why.

short journal entry

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 06:57:52 GMT

ya, i had a long fucking journal entry, but than it just randomly shut down on me, so heres basicly what it said. didnt have time to go to the shop in chicago, so we went to one 20 minutes away, it didnt have what i wanted, so im still fuckin waiting. went to the mall and got a new snowboard for my birthday which is in 7 days. came home after thinking all day, and reallized that jacobs is full of a bunch of total bastards, and 80% of them should die a slow painful death. and as for the nice, good people, i hope you have nothing but joy and sucess in your life.

thats about it, ill have a less gay entry tommary.

sincerly
steve "snowboarding every fuckin day of the season!!!" welsch

this box iludes me......

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 05:05:28 GMT

ok, lets see i was able to sleep in today :) but i still feel shitty. umm, my dad picked up my recording pedal from the shop, it took 2 god damn months, o well. nothing much really happened. just thinking as usual, using that thinking box they put in my head. umm, what else o ya i talked to ashley for a little while, and those are always good times. so hopefuly if im feeling better tommary, me and my dad will go down town and ill pick up my full stack. thats gonna kick major ass. hmm, well i think thats it, ill leave you with some lyrics like i did yesterday.

the cramps, detachable penis

I woke up this morning with a bad hangover
And my penis was missing again.
This happens all the time.
It's detachable.

[background singing begins: "detachable penis" over and over]

This comes in handy a lot of the time.
I can leave it home, when I think it's gonna get me in trouble,
or I can rent it out, when I don't need it.
But now and then I go to a party, get drunk,
and the next morning I can't for the life of me
remember what I did with it.
First I looked around my apartment, and I couldn't find it.
So I called up the place where the party was,
they hadn't seen it either.
I asked them to check the medicine cabinet
'cause for some reason I leave it there sometimes
But not this time.
So I told them if it pops up to let me know.
I called a few people who were at the party,
but they were no help either.
I was starting to get desperate.
I really don't like being without my penis for too long.
It makes me feel like less of a man,
and I really hate having to sit down every time I take a leak.
After a few hours of searching the house,
and calling everyone I could think of,
I was starting to get very depressed,
so I went to the Kiev, and ate breakfast.
Then, as I walked down Second Avenue towards St. Mark's Place,
where all those people sell used books and other junk on the street,
I saw my penis lying on a blanket
next to a broken toaster oven.
Some guy was selling it.
I had to buy it off him.
He wanted twenty-two bucks, but I talked him down to seventeen.
I took it home, washed it off,
and put it back on. I was happy again. Complete.
People sometimes tell me I should get it permanently attached,
but I don't know.
Even though sometimes it's a pain in the ass,
I like having a detachable penis.

sick :(

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 05:47:20 GMT

ok, lets see, today nothing much really happened, i was sick so i stayed home from school. i was bored all fucking day, but than people started coming online so that was cool. umm, lets see what else happened today. o ya i met this cool kid online, idk what his name is, but hes comin to jacobs soon, so thats cool. thats about it, ill leave you with some lyrics that really mean alot to me

THE VANDALS
MY GIRLFRIENDS DEAD!!

I once had a girlfriend,
But then one day she dumped me and everywhere
I'd go people would ask me where she was.

But I don't want to talk about her.
But someone always asks about her.
So I tell them all my girlfriend's dead.

I say it's leukemia or sometimes bulimia
Or a great big truck ran her over
And chopped off her head.

But I dont' want to talk about her.
But someone always asks about her.
So I tell them all my girlfriend's dead.

I guess there's a part of me that likes the sympathy
Or the looks on their faces when I tell them how
She passed away.

But I dont' want to talk about her.
But someone always asks about her.
So I tell them all she's dead.

My girlfriends dead you see,
It's a total lie-but it's easier on me
Than having ot admit she like's someone else.

My girlfriends dead you know,
Please change the subject or I am going to go
Jump off a building a join her in heaven.

lol, im gonna do that one day.

sincerely
steve "my girlfriend died when 50 black guys raped her until she choked to death" welsch

lifes good if you got friends.

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 02:31:52 GMT

today was pretty much the same as every day. you know how it is i get ignored by alot of people, and everyone at school is a fucking faggot. well actually there are alot of really cool people. but there are so many people at jacobs that are soo gay. o well. but after school i reallized while i was talking to my friends, that my life is gettin better every day. and that high school is gonna be a crazy expierience. like i was saying before though, there are soo many gay people at jacobs that feel as if they have to be mean to everyone to be "cool" or they think there better than everyone else. personally i think those people should fucking die, there gay and don't deserve to have another breath. ok done with the violence.

I feel as if high school's pretty cool though, but its good out of school, in school its a total hell hole. but out of school everyone is really cool. i didnt really do anything today, i missed the bus again today, lol. o well, shit happens, but ya school was gay as usual, and i came home took a nap, and talked online, what else is new, thats it kiddies. leave a comment :)

im back bc i got talked into it

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 00:00:48 GMT

yep, im gonna start writing in this thing again, ummm, thank you rachel you have shown me the light. ok what did i do today. well nothing really, i had a guitar lesson. umm, im really not doin to well in school i cant concentrate on anything at all. o well ill become a HOBO, and you can all give me a follar while you watch me drink my own urine. hmmm, well becase rachel was cool enough to write about me twice ill do this

rachel= cool kat

Crazy One16xx: When no one's your friend, its better because nobody leaves you.

bush isa tweeker: aww:-( that away message is sad, ill be your friend and not leave you... unless you stab me, on those grounds im aloud to leave you

Crazy One16xx: aww thats cute steve haha

Awww, ive been called cute. now all thats left is for a very hott girl come up to me and tell me how much she wants me, than we had crazy sex on an island for 5 days straight, but i die, because she has super AIDS. o well it would be worth it

sincerly
steve "i have AIDS :(" welsch

i didnt do anything today, so here are some quiz's

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 03:08:52 GMT

cant think of a subject.. soo... im hungry...

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 05:31:10 GMT

ok, so today i went to my cousins birthday party. pretty boring, i just sat around listening to music. then after that i went to hockey practice. i did ok, but i learned some stuff about high school from the seniors on the team, so thats cool. umm, then came home, took a shower, and now im here. well thats my "interesting" story. seya

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